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Tue, 15 Mar 2011 23:26:50 -0500

I’m so sorry that it didn’t work out.

Mon, 16 Aug 2010 11:39:00 -0500

I’m so sorry that it didn’t work out.

Dear Question, chase as much as you’d like. You’re never gonna win again. ~ Answer.

Fri, 09 Jul 2010 09:47:13 -0500

Dear Question, chase as much as you’d like. You’re never gonna win again. ~ Answer.

Hey Ryan.

Sun, 04 Jul 2010 00:27:21 -0500

Hey Ryan.

This is why Allie loves me. I have Ryan Cabrera leave her...

Sat, 03 Jul 2010 10:54:00 -0500

This is why Allie loves me. I have Ryan Cabrera leave her voicemails when I see him. I still wish she could have seen him while we were outside on our walk…BUT this is better than nothing : ) Oh and p.s, he liked saying your name.

ladyinterior:

Ryan’s voicemail to me! I promise I’ll stop posting RC stuff now.

Decisions, decisions...

Thu, 24 Jun 2010 21:54:18 -0500

To burn bridges or not to burn bridges? that is the question I’ve been asking myself the past few days. My head says yes, my heart says no. Which one do you listen to?

In other news, the apartment is almost completely renovated. I will be SO glad when moving day is over…which is Saturday. This is the eternal move and I hate having things so disorganized and not being able to put things where I specifically want them. I know that sounds super OCD of me…but I just like to have everything clean, organized, and where I want it. Sometimes with labels. (Okay, a lot of the time…) BUT I don’t see anything wrong with that! Cleaning is my way of de-stressing and being able to have order in one area of my life…even if other parts are messy : ) I was supposed to go down the shore on Saturday, but it doesn’t look like that’s happening now. Not okay with me, I haven’t been down yet this season…and it’s almost July.

funny how things don’t work out.

Tue, 22 Jun 2010 12:56:56 -0500

funny how things don’t work out.

"People aren’t coloring books. You can’t make them just how you want them."

Thu, 17 Jun 2010 00:50:48 -0500

““People aren’t coloring books. You can’t make them just how you want them.””

- Khaled Hosseini, The Kite Runner (via ladyinterior)

"When I was a little girl I used to read fairy tales. In fairy tales you meet Prince Charming and..."

Thu, 17 Jun 2010 00:13:36 -0500

“When I was a little girl I used to read fairy tales. In fairy tales you meet Prince Charming and he’s everything you ever wanted. In fairy tales the bad guy is very easy to spot. The bad guy is always wearing a black cape so you always know who he is. Then you grow up and you realize that Prince Charming is not as easy to find as you thought. You realize the bad guy is not wearing a black cape and he’s not easy to spot; he’s really funny, and he makes you laugh, and he has perfect hair.”

kiss kiss

Thu, 10 Jun 2010 10:29:42 -0500

Since I’ve been back in Philly I’ve discovered that there are Phanatic’s all over the city…they’re all different. The best one I’ve seen so far is at the Kimmel Center, he’s made up of different musical instruments. …But this one is fun, too : ) I just love the Phillies!

So DIY lately!

Thu, 06 May 2010 17:33:13 -0500

Over the past couple days…I learned how to tile an entire bathroom, and use a tile saw. Which makes a mess, just a heads up. I think I still have a tiny piece of glass in my eye, but the bathroom looks great! I’m going to look at paint colors tomorrow…I’m thinking green. Maybe I will post some pictures when the entire thing is done being renovated : )

wow

Mon, 03 May 2010 20:01:33 -0500

im super stoked to know that ive been gone a week and youre already over it. im glad you changed your mind about how much you care. it’s really considerate of you. if you ever need an outfit to match that stick up your ass, let me know.

It's just another day without you.

Mon, 03 May 2010 17:49:56 -0500

As of last week, I’m officially in Pennsylvania again. Things have been up and down and really I’m having a hard time finding out exactly where I fit in…but I have faith things will continue to fall together. Until then, I’m just going to have to continue to find ways to fill my time. I need new hobbies or something! Give me ideas that entertain, people! I may go insane soon.

In fact, on that note, I had a minor freak out on some IL friends yesterday that I’m not proud of, and I hope they can see it for what it was, and not take too much of it to heart. Cutting them off and acting angry is just my way of not dealing with the loneliness moving has given me. It’s amazing how you can feel all alone in a crowded room.

ONE THING I’m proud of is that since I’ve come here…I’ve started working out everyday again. The last few weeks before the move there was no time to fit it in, but now it’s back in full swing and feels good. Summers coming, and being on the East Coast means beach : ) So on that note, I’m off to go jogging.

Victoria

nothing’s worth the pain in your back.

Sun, 14 Feb 2010 23:49:37 -0600

nothing’s worth the pain in your back.

So tell me, have you surfaced yet?

Thu, 21 Jan 2010 19:31:47 -0600

I set my words on the ground and I was grinding my teeth. I planted
pieces of light to see if planets could speak. It took my mind by surprise
when I was finally free, through all my darkest days. I felt my heartbeat
again, and dropped to my knees. There was a sun in my eyes that made
a star out of me. It’s like my life was a list and my head was first
to get crossed off. It’s the pleasure that I keep to sit down with my
friends and talk about my day. Can you hear me? Well I don’t even care.
I’ll stop my screaming if you look the other way. It’s been a bad year
so let me sleep in one more day. I really found the simple things live
closest to your home. I’m not alone because I live inside a world that
is my own. I haven’t found what I’ve been looking for yet, but you
can count on me to stay forever. And that’s the truth, we’ll stay just
fine. I’m coming back and just on time to be myself again; the way that
made me real. So tell me, have you surfaced yet? This is how it felt
when I was growing up and being part of no one but you found yourself,
and that says a lot to me these days. I’m sorry for the way I used to
be, I was just a kid. Yeah, let me sleep this off. Try not to be hard
on yourself was all I ever heard from her. I finally think I understand
what she was saying to me, because nothing’s worth the pain in your
back. Believe in that. The world can take control but don’t ever lose
your heart, because I know you better than that.

I am driving myself insane.

Wed, 06 Jan 2010 21:54:36 -0600

I am driving myself insane.

"I seldom end up where I wanted to go, but almost always end up where I need to be."

Wed, 06 Jan 2010 12:01:13 -0600

“I seldom end up where I wanted to go, but almost always end up where I need to be.”

"So tell me what you think of the atmosphere and all those months inside my head. Well do you really..."

Tue, 05 Jan 2010 12:52:20 -0600

“So tell me what you think of the atmosphere
and all those months inside my head.
Well do you really believe in me?”